Finding Contentment

Grief is hard BUT Everything in grief isn’t negative. It definitely sucks that my person died, yes, but there has been a lot of growth! The past 9 months have been hard. And I’ve been on a journey for the past few months to find contentment in who I am and what I have. Not a “I should be grateful” mindset but just a “happiness from within” mindset. There is nothing wrong with wanting more but for me it’s all in the mindset.

We live in a society that makes us think that we have to have more more more to be happy, when truly it is less less less things.. Social media has planted a concept that more is better. I feel it has caused a small competition with everyone on whose life is better. “Keeping up with the Jones’” so to speak. That you need a bigger, flashier car with all the bells & whistles, A luxurious house, all the gadgets and knickknacks, a quick fix to get skinny, and things just instantly to feel happy. Definitely not knocking a new car or home ect. Just bringing to surface to not feel like you have to have that to be happy.

I was already a SAHM when Josh passed and now, with his passing, I am still able to do that thanks to SS. I’ve had to dial it back, make a budget, and cut cost when necessary to live comfortably. My goal has always been to have very minimal debt. I have dreams of a new car, building a home, and traveling the world with my girls. I mean I would love a minivan.. yeah… When I was in my twenties, I swore those words would never come out of my mouth, but once I became a mom to 2, a mini van looks pretty great! I have had to remind myself that the smaller SUV I drive, is in really good condition AND paid off. It may be a tight fit for us three, but it runs well. The day will come where I have to get a new vehicle, but for now, I’m going to ride this one out a little longer.

It is easy to get in the realm of wanting more. Which is why for me, I have scaled back big time, on the time I spend on social media. I’m an introvert and a SAHM, so I spend a lot of time at home with my kids. I cut back on social media a while ago because it doesn’t bring me joy and I was allowing it to be a distraction from what is in front of me. I am finding by having self control on what I put in front of my eyes is helpful. This goes for Tv shows too. Finding continentment in life isn’t just about monetary things. I had a whole life planned out with my late husband, Josh. So I have had to take a step back and find happiness and contentment with myself. Boy, has it been a journey.

Hebrews 13:5-6 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have for he has said, “ i will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Try to find the beauty in what you have and cherish just that. The release you will feel when you stop wanting more in an envious way is out of this world.