He insisted…

(Valentines Day)

Since Josh’s passing, I refelct a lot on our relationship. We weren’t perfect but we were perfect for each other. We balanced each other out in such an amazing way. Now that the holidays are approaching, I am reflecting on those too.

Christmas 2023

Last year before Christmas, I remember asking Josh if he wanted to skip presents for each other this year, since I had recently went on maternity leave and we had a newborn. Now, we both were not huge “gifts” people. That wasn’t our love language. Oddly enough, we both were physical touch and quality time. MAN It’s like hitting the jackpot when you both have the same love language LOL I was sitting on the couch and he was at the table when I had posed the question. He said “ I’d like to still do something.” I said, “ Okay, but babe we can always wait til next year if we need to.” And he insisted. Christmas came and he got me my very own set of AirPods, which he was so excited about, because if you knew Josh, he was a very tech-y person & Apple lover. I had never owned any and I kind of felt foriegn wearing them at first but I didn’t realize they would quickly become the only way I talk on the phone or listen to podcast etc. With that being our last Christmas together, I’m glad he insisted…

Valentine’s Day of 2024

We had a baby that we didn’t really take in the public eye much. She was born right in the thick of sickness season. Josh and I talked about what we wanted to do, to celebrate the day of love, and I booked a reservation at our favorite place, J Alexanders. Josh started coming down with some kind of cold a few days before Valentine’s Day. He wasn’t a very good sick person either, which he knowingly admitted! I asked if he wanted to cancel but he said no he would be fine. He had a rough night the night before and the baby also had me up every hour, like newborns do, and i told him I would understand if we just wanted to stay home and rest. We could always do a post Valentine’s Day lunch. I was really

Tired But, he insisted that we go. We went and though he could barely breathe out of his nose, we made the best of it. We loved to eat, and we hadn’t really had a date since the baby was born. And once we got home, all 3 of us took a nap on the couch.

I’m sure there are more things he insisted on, but my brain really recalls those two at this moment. I’m thankful he insisted on doing those things. He always just made stuff happen, kinda like my own Superman. We always think we have more time than we do. That we will have next Christmas or next Valentine’s Day, tomorrow, next week ect with our spouse, and with our kids.. I for sure thought Josh and I would have 50 more Christmas & valentines days. If he hadn’t insisted, I would be sitting here today wishing we had made it happen. You can’t get time back. Love your spouse and nurture your kids. Time is a gift, Death is a thief.