Here is to new traditions 🥂

This year I’m taking a break from traditions. I’m taking a break from a lot. When Josh died, Life got thrown in a blender and quite frankly facing the holidays without your spouse is a whole different level. Grief is like monopoly. A few steps forward, a bunch of steps backward. And in the end, someone flips the board over lol On a serious note, There are a lot of feelings that have come up that have surprised me. And I say it often but I don’t know why things still surprise me in grief…. 🤷🏻‍♀️🙄

Taking it easy was one of the best decisions I made for the three of us. It has been good for me mentally, emotionally, and physically. Large groups overwhelm me. I’m tired. And the time and energy I do have, I am using on my kids. I think I speak on mine and my girls behalf when I say focusing on them and making memories , has been just what our hearts needed.

I have a lot of memories with holiday traditions we did for 30 years. And while those traditions are great, I’ve been pondering a lot on what I want to start doing with my girls for the holidays next year. The options are there; Take holiday trips, do more of the fun things that they enjoy, cook the food they like (not casseroles because my Oldest hears that word and wants to 🤢), something different. Family traditions may look different in the years to come, and that’s okay. We may start traveling. We may go MIA. We may throw a party (but highly unlikely 😂)

Life and grief are unpredictable. But hey, We are going to figure it out as we go. 🤍