Grief is grief, and Im a little angry

If you have watched the news or been on any social media platform, you likely know that Charlie Kirk was assasinated yesterday. Im angry. But my anger has shifted more towards knowing what his widow is going through, in a sense. No loss is ever the same, but we are similar. Both Widowed at a young age, Husbands both strong men of God, and both having 2 small children. It spun me all the way back to the day I became a widow. Recalling the numbness and disbelief I felt for days/weeks, and the shock that flooded my body for months. It’s been 1.5 years, and the waves arent as often but with this…. The grief wave has hit! The walk is all a walk of constant “new”.. New feelings that emerge as life does. This hit close to home. Im reminded of the pain she is going to feel the days (months/years) to come.

Bad things happen to real amazing people because sin entered the world a long time ago. We cant make it make sense. Offer a listening ear with no advice or comforting words, because lets be real there is nothing you can say to make a widow feel better. Please dont tell her “he is in a better place”. Please dont tell her “It’s all in Gods plan”, because I can promise you, him being assassinated was not in Gods plan. God isnt the God of evil. Now, do i believe that God will bring beauty from the ashes, Yes… He turns what the enemy means for harm into good. He is constantly shifting his plan for us, because there is sin in the world.

Isaiah 61:3 To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. (NLT)

Genesis 50:20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. (NLT)

I hope that the rapture comes soon. I’m ready. I’m over this world. Im tired of the evil and stupidity. My immediate and constant prayer is that God wrap his arms of comfort around Charlies wife and children. That she feel that comfort that can only be explained as heavenly. It’s a comfort that I have felt at times and yet have a hard time explaining.

People get ready, Jesus is coming.