Isn’t it beautiful seeing the leaves change colors and fall to the ground? I smell fall weather officially approaching, insert my happy dance here.
This is quite frankly my favorite time of year. The 60-70 degree weather is my jam! Sipping coffee on the porch during the crisp & cool morning is my happy place. The seasons are changing and I’m here for it🧡
I read on another blogpost somewhere that “Nature teaches us that death isn't only just natural, it’s necessary for life.” In fall, the leaves will begin to change colors, and fall from the trees to the ground. In winter, the leaves that have fallen will die, and the trees become bare. Come spring, without fail, new leaves are produced on the trees and flowers begin to bloom from the ground. The cycle of life.
It talked about how seasons changing is a lot like grief and it changing forms. I never really thought of it like the seasons but it’s true. It never goes away, it constantly grows with us. I mentioned before in another blog post of mine, that to me grief seems like the wheel of fortune but with no prizes. Meaning that the wheel of fortune just keeps spinning around back to the numbers it passed.. It will land on a certain area and then spin again. Grief is constantly changing and circling back. Just like the seasons.
It seems that people think you will “Get over the loss” and Honestly that’s insane to me. I’ve gathered that most of the time, if someone feels that way, they’ve never lost their spouse, a parent, or a child. I do know that no matter where life takes me, I’ll never be “over” losing Josh. He will forever be in my heart.
Because of grief and the pain we feel from it, it allows room for growth. Ding ding, just like the seasons. As you navigate through it, You learn a lot about yourself, the people around you, stuff you don’t want to entertain, and things that mean a lot to you. You shed off old layers and grow new ones. I’ve learned that because of the loss of my husband, My heart feels like it loves even deeper now. I’ve felt such a great love from him and I’ve felt such deep pain from losing him, that now my heart is in a place that it’s seen both sides, yet it still chooses love knowing that grief is there too.
There are good days and not so good days. And it will be like that for the rest of my days. Love is forever. Grief is too.
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